my weekend in BS

Being home, being at my family's house, after such a long time is a strange, strange thing. Our garden looks different, a neighbouring house is missing, just grounded, and another neighbour put a wence where once a hedge had been. My mum re-decorated "my room", the room which I slept in after my mother moved to the upper floor and my grandparents to the lower one, this room looks completely different from what it used to be like. It's nice though. Okay, I won't lie here, so I'll tell you I'm a bit sad, too. Not because there was an argument or anything, there wasn't, everything's quite harmonic actually, just... I don't know.

On the one hand, I feel loved and wanted here. I'm happy here, I'm glad. On the other hand, I've come to realize that my future really lies in my own hands. Well, I want to do things in my life which nobody ever did here. For quite some time, however, I've kept asking my family, metaphorically speaking, what to do to make my hopes and dreams for my studies and job possible. They never had answers. But, illogically, I inssisted that they should have them and just did not tell me. Yeah. But now, I've come to realize that it's me who has to search for ways to become what I want to be someday. Sounds obvious and a bit stupid, doesn't it? But if you think again, don't we just all want to look up to our parents and, even if just in a small parts, walk the way which they took? Company and gudiance can be such a blessing, such a true blessing that sometimes we forget that we're not on the way we intended to take.

So. Enough contemplative rambling for tonight. I'm having a great weekend here and I'll tell you why! Just a couple of things.

It started in the train from Gießen to Kassel when a guy sat down next to me, I just saw him from the corner of my eye and thought to myself, "He looks a LOT like CJ." CJ and I went to school together and even though he was two years older, we got along great and met with a group of close friends quite often. Yeah, what you think to see from the corner of your eye. He worked on his laptop, I read some text for class. Thing is I wasn't sure, but planned to ask him when the train would arrive at Kassel. That way, if he wasn't CJ, I wouldn't have to feel embarrassed for a very long time because our ways would probably part at the station anyway. I'm so clever! Yeah, right. Anyways. Before that could happen, he caught a glimpse of my bag showing a road map of Braunschweig's inner city and he asked, "T?" and I went like "CJ?" and we had a great laugh. We talked about old times, new times, all the people we both knew and haven't heard of for ages, and that it would be so great to meet again. We said goodbye at Braunschweig main station where my mother spied on us and thought I picked up a date on my ride here. Haha. Anyways. I had a great time and am thinking about writing some emails to the right people and maybe suggest a meetup around Christmas. I'd love that.

What else? My mum picked me up, we had mashed potatoes for dinner and nobody does mashed potatoes like my mum. Seriously, sooooo delicious. We watched the German Comedy Awards and had a great laugh about Dieter Nuhr, Johann König (well, I had), and especially Elton and Michael Mittermeier complaining to Bully about his unfair casting for his Wickie movie. This morning, my grandma took us to IKEA for breakfast which was nice, too. Around noon, my mum and I drove into the city and bought a lot of shiny things. Because I have basically, huh, around 15 Euros left until my pay arrives hopefully early next week, mum payed for everything. And more. ♥ Like food: lunch (some awesome asian food in a sweet little restaurant) and hot chocolate (in a chocolaterie which just opened today, lucky us). Like clothes: a pair of fluffy Snoopy pyjamas (because I lack a warm one for winter when staying here) and a skirt (in black/white plaid, so cool!). And other things like a little mannequin to hang my earrings on, new earphones (THANK GOD) and other little things. And for the movies! We saw Männerherzen which I strongly recommend. It's a real sweet movie but has quite some depth considering human relationships as well (plus, the soundtrack is awesome, too). Then, we shopped some groceries for lunch tommorow, and watched A knight's tale on TV for the 2376249823049th time.

Well, well. I wonder whether or not I shoud visit more often now. Apart from the I'm-growing-up-oh-no thoughts mentioned above, everything runs smoothly here. My mum, my grandma and grandpa visibly love to see me and let me tell you that is very rare, at least in this intensity, at least for my "two mums". But if I visited more often, the euphoria of me being here might cease which wouldn't serve anybody, right?

Have a great Sunday everybody! :-)